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Saturday, April 9, 2011

I didn't want to be Single.....

I wanted to have my family together.....my two boys with me.....my son and boyfriend.  But, it didn't happen because my boyfriend decided to leave, me, us for the fourth time.....Again!  I sit in our home that he picked out missing him, getting angry at him and sometimes sobbing uncontrollably.  This home was supposed to be for the three of us, but he gave up, abandoned us and I hate him for that.   Will I ever completely forgive him? I don't know?! All I know is my heart is sooo broken, sooo hurt.

stolen from another single mama blog:

He had made a terrible decision to give up on our lives together, the life that i know is worth the effort.  I blame him for allowing his emotions to get the best of him.  And what he may not understand yet is that life does not deliver you love wrapped up in a nice neat package.  Love isn't a state of being, it changes and it is sometimes situational at best - but it is marked by commitment and choice.  It is a decision that may have to be made again and again, even with the same person.